More Miracles

So, I am, as usual, quite broke.

I've learned, however, that the Universe has answers and will point me the way to them.

I was sitting there looking at my house taxes and thinking about how I was going to pay them.

I don't really know what prompted me to look at this one credit card account. It gets paid automatically and just really don't use it. (Wait, I know what prompted me, the Universe!)

I look and interestingly I have just enough credit to pay my taxes. I mean, right on the nose.

Honestly, I still haven't stopped thanking the Universe for that one!

In the meantime, I had a phone interview for a medical ad agency right here in town for a freelance assignment that could turn into a full-time job.

I guess they liked me because I have an interview tomorrow. If there wasn't a polar vortex I would be happier but whatever....

Also, another agency contacted me to discuss future work.

So taxes paid, jobs popping up, Universe as usual responding to my every need.

Now, if we could just do something about that polar vortex....

Nothing matters more than how I feel....

So, I'm a bit broke. Things are tight.

I've been sick. Like "I've got the flu and I'm going to die" sick.

I've been to the doctor two Mondays in a row.

So, one of my agencies calls about a job.

Has an editing test.

Okay, not really feeling it but okay.

They first send me a CDA, which I sign, of course.

Then the send me not one, but two files, with several slides and they want me to devote two hours of my life to this test.

I looked it over yesterday and decided to leave it until today.

I woke up abruptly very early and I had another look.

Honestly, I just got madder and madder.

It was RIDICULOUS!

I have 20 years experience and you want me to spend 2 billable hours just to prove it.

Nah, bro, just nah.

Mind you, I could use the money.

But, I've learned, over the years, to trust my instincts.

I sent an email to the agency, passing on the possible assignment, clearly stating that I wasn't going to waste two hours on this.

The relief I felt afterwards was amazing.

I was also pleased that I had once again chosen myself and trusted the Universe completely.

I received a reply from the agency, agreeing with me. Totally understanding. Totally supportive. They had suggested that they should pay the candidate for two hours but they refused.

I think this was another test from the Universe.

Could I be as broke as a joke and still put myself first and trust the Universe that something else will show up?

Yeah, I really can.

Looking forward to what's coming, I know it's going to be great!

Amazed Again!

So, about ten days ago or so, I said, "Well, Universe, clearly I'm not ready to sell this house yet, so I can't retire. Guess, I'll need a job. Do your thing. I'm leaving it up to entirely.

Couple of days later, I'm reading emails that pop up every day with jobs.

I see that one of my editorial temp agencies needs an AMA copy editor right away. Two days a week. Great hourly pay! Bit of ride up 95 but after rush hour.

So, I apply. Two minutes later, the agency calls. Some conversation.

A day later, can you work this week?

Of course!

Worked on Friday, asked to come back Monday.

Worked Monday, asked to come back Wednesday and Friday.

Sure!

Best part?  They just opened an office in Philadelphia in Olde City.  That office isn't staffed yet.

Hmmm, is the Universe great or what?

"I believe in miracles."

Miracles

If only you believe like I believe in miracles, like I do, baby, we'll get by. 

I've got this damn song STUCK in my head.

Ever since I heard Marty Balin died and clicked on this song, I can't get it out of my head.

I've never actually liked this song.

I like it even less now, after several days of ear worm.

Last night it occurred to me (finally) to wonder if the song had some message in it for me.

I think it does.

I have a lot on my plate. Lots of decisions. Lots of things to do after the decisions.

I'm planning on selling my house and retiring.

These are really big decisions.

I am procrastinating. I am worrying. I am constantly asking myself "What if?"

Then I realized that the Universe was telling me that it could only match me.

I had to believe in miracles first for miracles to happen.

I get it but that damn songs is STILL STUCK in my head!

Once more into the fray...

So, today I've starting applying for jobs again.

I have a wedding tomorrow and a doctor's appointment next week and then just an open calendar.

I'm actually a little excited about it.

I've applied for an inside sales position. Never done that before. I've always thought I would be good at it.

I also applied for editor position that seems more project management than editing.

I also applied for temp editing position.

Covering all the bases here!

It's fun to go back to work when you haven't been working for awhile.

Waiting for my roommates to move out. Can't wait to have the house to myself again. Also, to really purge with their stuff out of my way.

I've always been amazed at what the Universe has cooked up for me.

Preparing to be amazed again!

Banana Peel Time

Yeah, so I haven't been here for awhile.

I'd like to say life is delicious but it's not.

I took in some friends with no place to go and truly regret it.

There's been upsets, yelling, and, even stealing.

Hard to believe that someone you rescued would steal from you but there it is.

I remember years ago a friend picked up a hitchhiker. I met him. He was a Viet Nam vet. He showed me the scar on his back where he got shot.

He let him stay the night.

The hitchhiker stole his watch and escaped out the window (because he didn't have a key for the door).

Yeah, these things happen. Honestly haven't thought of that in years but similar situation.

I though I was over being codependent but apparently I'm not.

It feels so unkind to turn your back on someone, but, really, they have the same connection to their Higher Self and the Universe that I do. Maybe they don't know it, but they do.

I think bad things are happening because it's time to move in. Move on from old relationships, old houses, old ways, old things.

I checked Point of Power, which I hadn't done for a long time and received this message:

When your whole world is going to hell, you are going to heaven. And the kingdom of heaven is within you.

It's true, too.

Believe me, I want to sit and berate myself for causing this situation but what good would it do?

I've learned my lesson. Really painful lesson. Really expensive lesson (in more ways than one).

The truth is, though, that whatever I've lost, well, at some point, I'm going to "lose" it all.

I'm going to drop the body, kick the frame, and everything will just left behind.

No matter what it is, no matter how valuable, no matter how cherished.

It's all just an illusion anyway......

Faith...

Isa 43:16 Thus says the LORD, Who makes a way through the sea And a path through the mighty waters... 

In my meditation today, I was thinking about how do you completely trust the Universe for everything.

This is what popped into my mind:

"Do you doubt the sun?"

I thought about this for some time. 

Well, no, I have never doubted that the sun will come up. 

Nope, not once, not ever, never.

Well, that's the kind of faith you need to be absolutely sure something will manifest.

Now, I know, that's a formidable amount of belief.

But, just imagine for a minute, what you could create if you believed the Universe could manifest your creation the way you believed the sun would come up tomorrow.

Because the Universe can make a way that, I assure you, you would have NEVER thought of.

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. (Isaiah 43:18-19)