Amazed Again!

So, about ten days ago or so, I said, "Well, Universe, clearly I'm not ready to sell this house yet, so I can't retire. Guess, I'll need a job. Do your thing. I'm leaving it up to entirely.

Couple of days later, I'm reading emails that pop up every day with jobs.

I see that one of my editorial temp agencies needs an AMA copy editor right away. Two days a week. Great hourly pay! Bit of ride up 95 but after rush hour.

So, I apply. Two minutes later, the agency calls. Some conversation.

A day later, can you work this week?

Of course!

Worked on Friday, asked to come back Monday.

Worked Monday, asked to come back Wednesday and Friday.

Sure!

Best part?  They just opened an office in Philadelphia in Olde City.  That office isn't staffed yet.

Hmmm, is the Universe great or what?

"I believe in miracles."

Miracles

If only you believe like I believe in miracles, like I do, baby, we'll get by. 

I've got this damn song STUCK in my head.

Ever since I heard Marty Balin died and clicked on this song, I can't get it out of my head.

I've never actually liked this song.

I like it even less now, after several days of ear worm.

Last night it occurred to me (finally) to wonder if the song had some message in it for me.

I think it does.

I have a lot on my plate. Lots of decisions. Lots of things to do after the decisions.

I'm planning on selling my house and retiring.

These are really big decisions.

I am procrastinating. I am worrying. I am constantly asking myself "What if?"

Then I realized that the Universe was telling me that it could only match me.

I had to believe in miracles first for miracles to happen.

I get it but that damn songs is STILL STUCK in my head!

Once more into the fray...

So, today I've starting applying for jobs again.

I have a wedding tomorrow and a doctor's appointment next week and then just an open calendar.

I'm actually a little excited about it.

I've applied for an inside sales position. Never done that before. I've always thought I would be good at it.

I also applied for editor position that seems more project management than editing.

I also applied for temp editing position.

Covering all the bases here!

It's fun to go back to work when you haven't been working for awhile.

Waiting for my roommates to move out. Can't wait to have the house to myself again. Also, to really purge with their stuff out of my way.

I've always been amazed at what the Universe has cooked up for me.

Preparing to be amazed again!

Banana Peel Time

Yeah, so I haven't been here for awhile.

I'd like to say life is delicious but it's not.

I took in some friends with no place to go and truly regret it.

There's been upsets, yelling, and, even stealing.

Hard to believe that someone you rescued would steal from you but there it is.

I remember years ago a friend picked up a hitchhiker. I met him. He was a Viet Nam vet. He showed me the scar on his back where he got shot.

He let him stay the night.

The hitchhiker stole his watch and escaped out the window (because he didn't have a key for the door).

Yeah, these things happen. Honestly haven't thought of that in years but similar situation.

I though I was over being codependent but apparently I'm not.

It feels so unkind to turn your back on someone, but, really, they have the same connection to their Higher Self and the Universe that I do. Maybe they don't know it, but they do.

I think bad things are happening because it's time to move in. Move on from old relationships, old houses, old ways, old things.

I checked Point of Power, which I hadn't done for a long time and received this message:

When your whole world is going to hell, you are going to heaven. And the kingdom of heaven is within you.

It's true, too.

Believe me, I want to sit and berate myself for causing this situation but what good would it do?

I've learned my lesson. Really painful lesson. Really expensive lesson (in more ways than one).

The truth is, though, that whatever I've lost, well, at some point, I'm going to "lose" it all.

I'm going to drop the body, kick the frame, and everything will just left behind.

No matter what it is, no matter how valuable, no matter how cherished.

It's all just an illusion anyway......

Faith...

Isa 43:16 Thus says the LORD, Who makes a way through the sea And a path through the mighty waters... 

In my meditation today, I was thinking about how do you completely trust the Universe for everything.

This is what popped into my mind:

"Do you doubt the sun?"

I thought about this for some time. 

Well, no, I have never doubted that the sun will come up. 

Nope, not once, not ever, never.

Well, that's the kind of faith you need to be absolutely sure something will manifest.

Now, I know, that's a formidable amount of belief.

But, just imagine for a minute, what you could create if you believed the Universe could manifest your creation the way you believed the sun would come up tomorrow.

Because the Universe can make a way that, I assure you, you would have NEVER thought of.

Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland. (Isaiah 43:18-19)

So, why am I here exactly?

I've been thinking of this a lot.

Why exactly am I on this planet?

Here, now?

I've thought this place was bizarre ever since I could think.

There are some really really strange people on this planet.

I often think I don't know why I'm here.

Maybe I'm here for the apocalypse.

Apocalypse means unveiling, not the end of the world.

Certainly seems like there is a lot of unveiling going on lately. (See Weinstein scandal).

Tooling around the internet (as I am wont to do...LOL), I saw this today on Rob Brezsny's site, Free Will Astrology:

"What's the Most Important Question for You to Ask Today?

You possess exceptional capacities that are absolutely unique. You're a masterpiece unlike any other that has ever lived in the history of the world.

Furthermore, the precise instructions you need to ripen into your special talents have always been with you, even from the time before you were born. In the words of psychologist James Hillman, you have a soul's code.

You might also call it the mission you came to Earth to carry out; the divine blueprint that contains the open secret of how to be perfectly, unpredictably yourself; the master plan that is your heart's deepest desire.

Would you like help in deciphering it? The Divine Intelligence Formerly Known as God is always on call, ready to help. It's your birthright to ask Her a specific question every day about what you need to do next to express your soul's code; it's also your birthright to receive a response. 

The divine revelation may not be as unambiguous as a little voice in your head. It might appear in the form of a TV commercial, an odd dream, or an encounter with a stranger. It could be demanding and difficult, delivering information you'd rather not have to deal with. Or it might show up as a clear and simple feeling of knowing exactly what to do, and it could be easy and fun.

What question will you ask the Divine Wow today?"

Well, okay, then. I've decided to ask everyday for a sign. Why the heck am I here and what exactly am I supposed to do next.

I'll let you know if I hear anything...

                                  I am safe in the arms of the Universe.

When I woke up, the feelings tried to return, but I successfully fought them off.

I just kept repeating "I am safe in the arms of the Universe."

This is a hard truth to believe.

We are taught over and over again to be careful, to watch out, to expect calamity.

It's a sensible thing to teach a child, I suppose, but is it true?

I noticed something interesting when I was repeating it to myself.

As I repeated it, my muscles began to relax.

It is interesting that I am subconsciously "girding my loins" for battle, even when there is no danger.

I am going to meditate on this later today. I want to inculcate that feeling until it's automatic.


                                I am safe in the arms of the Universe.